We’ve just taken a week off for Thanksgiving, and we should be gearing up for Christmas. This is the time of year when you’re supposed to reflect on what you’re grateful for and – particularly if you have children – look forward to more celebrations with the ones you love.
But this holiday season, it’s pretty hard for our household to feel thankful or festive. On Sunday night we lost our dear little puppy, Oliver, after he was attacked by what we assume was a coyote or a large dog that wandered onto our property.
We live in a very remote area. It takes us more than a half an hour just to get to Grayson, and that’s with good clear roads and pressing the speed limit a little bit. That’s already a long drive when your beloved pet is in shock and losing blood. But if we could have contacted a vet in Grayson, I do believe Oliver would still be with us. Instead, the only available emergency vet was another 40 minutes away, in Ceredo, WV.
Of course, we made the drive in a much shorter time than that. But it was too little, too late. Oliver was still alive when we got there, and they took him back into surgery. But just before we got home, we received the call we were dreading. Oliver’s heart had stopped during the procedure to repair his punctured abdomen, and two shots of medicine – including epinephrine injected directly into his heart – failed to get it beating again. Once the veterinarians ceased CPR and removed oxygen, our dear little angel was gone.
But, we still had things to do. We had a newspaper to finish.
Our kids had school, and our youngest didn’t want to miss – even though we gave him the opportunity to stay home and grieve. As his mother noted, it was probably for the best, as it kept him occupied.
He slept fitfully. He woke up several times through the night, and would say to me, “I’m sad,” before cuddling in close until he dozed back off.
But while he slept fitfully, I barely slept at all. From around 1 a.m. until after 3, I lie in bed praying a simple, desperate prayer.
“Please, dear Lord. Please let this be a mistake. Let his heart have started again. Let me show up Monday morning to pick up a sore, but sassy, Yorkshire terrier. Let the doctors have confused two dogs with the same name when they called. Please.”
Over, and over, and over I recited variations on this plea, until dissolving into simple repetitions of the word, “please.”
Please, dear Lord God. Please. Please, let it be wrong.
Let Oliver be alive, I prayed, and I will deliver a testimony like none before. Let Oliver be alive, and I will tell the story of a child’s plaintive cries to a God who heard, and delivered.
Instead, I dug a hole on Monday afternoon, and after school – with his mother and I standing by his side – our boy said goodbye to the pup who had been his companion and playmate for the past two years. He cried. I cried. And I told him how proud I was of him.
He stayed there with me, despite the biting cold, until we’d completely filled in Oliver’s grave. We marked it with a solid wooden stake, until we can fashion a headstone, but that’s the next step. Our son, six-years-old going on sixty, wants to make it himself.
It’s important to him that the grave be marked properly, and I’ll do everything I can to help him grieve, process, and honor our little friend in the way he deserves.
Because being thankful is hard, particularly in the face of loss. But I’m still thankful that we had Oliver and his oversized personality in our lives for the short time that we did. I’m thankful for the amazing, thoughtful, sensitive child we’re raising. I’m thankful for a spouse who grieves beside me and with me. I’m thankful for friends and employees who stepped up so I could do what I needed for the good of my family.
I’m sad. I’m angry. I’m a little bit broken. But I’m trying to remember to be thankful too. Because that’s the thing about love. Sometimes it’s painful. Especially when it was real.
(Editor’s note: We would like to express our sincere thanks to Doc and Cindy Gibson, with All Creatures Veterinary Care in Grayson. Even though they were out of town for the holidays, they took our calls and gave us all the assistance and emotional support they could from a distance. Your kindness is one of the tiny bright spots in our recent dark days, and we appreciate your care.) Contact the writer at editor@cartercountytimes.com





















